WHO AM I

Baru juga aku sembuh dari asam lambungku

Hanya bisa tiduran di kasur 3 hari

Cuma satu matkul hari ini, itu pun dosen cuma minta isi presensi

Sedang aku bangun dari pagi, mencoba mengisi otak dengan materi

Tapi apa yang dibilang ibu?

"Mbok kalo kuliah cuma sore tu ya mencuci. Tu anak tante XXX juga kuliah tetep mencuci,"

Dan terjadi lagi mulai lagi, ibu meminta bantuan dengan nada tak mengenakkan

Seolah beliau yang sengsara sendiri

Tapi kalau aku sambat gabisa nugas didiemin aja, ga dibantu juga kan

Karena terkadang untuk bisa mendapat pencerahan butuh sambil rebahan loh

Sedih saja rasanya hal ini terulang kembali

Meminta bantuan tapi tidak dengan cara yang menyenangkan

Sungguh menyesakkan 

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Lesson learned : kalo nyuruh anak jangan pake bandingin anak orang lain, sungguh. Bukannya memotivasi tapi justru bikin demotivated parah .-.

Actually, this thought just came randomly out of nowhere. I just watched a video where my senior covered a KPOP song. She said that the song was used by the dad of the singer to confess to his mom. 

I was really touched for some moments...before I realize that how ironic it is the fact that he shared the story means that maybe, more people will be inspired to confess someone with that song. But... He will most likely not get the opportunity to do that like his parents did.

Then I took some time to think. Singers, I mean maybe KPOP singers, nowadays mostly choose to sing romance or love-related song. But, they have some circumstances where they can't really experience that. They can't really experience what they convey in their songs. It's just...kind of sad right? Even their fans kind of forbid them to have the story like what is told in the song. But they imagine to have that with the singer. But when it happens with someone else, they will get extremely upset. But on top of that, how can they still believe what's told in the song when actually the singer don't really experienced that 😅 I don't intend to offense anyone, of course it's such a skill to be able to convey a story and touch hearts through songs in which feeling they've never known about. But still ... Ehe, it would be better to let them go through the real experience to get deeper feeling(?) Don't know hihi

It's different with the condition in Indonesia maybe, where I see that some singers still put their thoughts, life, and heart in their songs. They really depict them. Like... Isyana Sarasvati, at least from the vlog I watched hihi.