WHO AM I

Whew, what is this? Where did this thought come from? So strange.. I don't know. But up to this day, I've met some friends whose brain is really amazing but have some problems to relate with the life of "normal people". 

They have unique perspectives that somehow can't be understood easily. As it's such a rare occasion for them to meet a matching friend who can understand their feeling and the way they view this world, as long as they are still "lonely", they will likely end up either be an entertaining clown or pretend to be lazy and just let everything go. 

Why? That's because they feel that no one can see nor understand their talents. So, what's the point of showing everyone how smart and outstanding they are when nobody can actually sees the view they see? That feeling when you have given your all to share your excitement about some facts or theorems, when you already explained everything up to the smallest details that gave you goosebumps, but turns out that no one can really understand what you just said and at the end just got a reply more or less like this. 

"Wow, you're indeed in a different level above us. I don't actually understand what you said before, but I can still feel the amazement. I hope you can donate some parts of your brain to me hahaha,"

Like, what? They might feel tired sooner or later since their excitement and interest means nothing to everyone they have met. And now, I can see and feel that this might become a problem.

Loneliness is an uneasy feeling to deal with for all types of human. No matter how introverted someone is, if he doesn't think that he is acknowledged, then...he will feel...lonely

But it's just too difficult to reach their level of geniusity only for the reason of being one of their probably matching friend. This special group of people who need to live their life among normal people who don't know them... sometimes will slowly be perceived as a weirdo. It's just so sad, the fact that they actually have a rare talent but just not yet meet the right community, that they will give huge impact to this world if only they meet people who can understand and work together with them.

So now, I understand why a special class for geniuses is needed. It's a way for them to gather so that they can keep enjoying the school and learning process. So that their excitement and experiments won't go in vain. So that there will be no obstacles inside their discussion.

It only becomes wrong when a student struggle hard to enter that class just because he want the title of genius, while after get inside he struggles because he can't keep up with the fast progress. 

So, don't force yourself to fit in a group when deep down your heart you know that you're not one of them. It's not only for their good, but also yours. Remember that every of us has our own given talent. Know what it is and maximize it. Don't waste your time and energy on something that actually is not you. Only when you realize where you belong and pursue it seriously then you can make great impacts to the society and to the growth of that field. That will accelerate everything 😉

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Oh wait, about the new target that I mentioned earlier, is that a wise decision for me to take? Whew, that's because I feel that my conclusion is not aligned with my new target haha. Maybe I will just try to learn more everything to realise my new target but not aiming to be one of the geniuses, just at least in emergency situation can make them feel better since there's still someone who can understand a little..

—This late night thoughts can be written thanks to the first episode of Melancholia.